How long have I lived for others? How long have I tried to fit in?
I push down my wants and needs I ignore my own feelings I put on a mask so everyone else will accept me
How far back does it go? How long have I been afraid?
I had questions I never asked Feelings I never expressed Options I never explored all so I wouldn't be laughed at
I don't know how long I may never know But I accept myself now So I'm finished pretending
It's time to be me
Sometimes Life hits HARD too fast to react too strong to take too much to bear and I have to stop and rest When I do I realize I wasn't ready Life was worse than I thought it'd be
It's so easy to become jaded to assume Life will always be this bad
Sometimes Life surprises me it's soft and calming, gentle and kind, warm and loving Life is looking out for me I realize Life was better than I thought it'd be
It's so hard to take Life one day at a time But I still have those moments of kindness to remind me
That Life isn't always as bad As I thought it'd be
It's a sunny day a lovely stroll shiny people a good sleep
Days like this make the world bright the air fresh the sun warm
It won't last forever and tomorrow might be dreary so I'll enjoy today as best I can
I'll breathe the air I'll feel the sun I'll store up the light And I'll enjoy
every moment
When life is too much When it hits too hard It helps to know That I can stop and listen to the sounds of life
Close my eyes Take deep breaths
Listen
Birds Piano Guitar Drums Laughter Song Happiness Rain Love
Life goes on All around me And I know I can listen And remember that I'm not alone
I walk through life taking careful steps because I always do my best to be kind
I don't expect it from others but I still watch out for it because I can always do more to be kind
When I experience kindness especially a brand new sort I remember that new way to be kind
Because I know that random bits of kindness can brighten anyone's day so I'll keep learning and do my very best to be kind
It has taken years and years and years To see myself As more than my mistakes To love myself Despite the times I didn't think I didn't know I didn't understand
If that is all YOU see If you cannot accept That I am NOT perfect Then all YOU are doing is holding ME back
and I deserve so much better
They can make you laugh They can make you cry But you never know which one They're going to do next
Maybe you'll be happy Smiling and laughing together The world full of bright color
Maybe you'll be sad Heartbroken and numb The world cold and empty
You don't know which one There's no way to know what happens next You just have to jump And hope for the best
I guess that's why they call it “Falling in love”
I've held on to so much for so long
So much pain So much regret So much resentment
I never knew how to let go But it's time That I start learning
Deep breaths Open my hands Let go
It's finally time To let it all go
Today my mind is for ME
Not the world's problems Not my friends' problems Not my loved ones' problems ME
They are all so important But if I worry about them I'll be consumed By tending those flowers I'll forget all about my own
It's not that I don't care It's that I DO care too much
So today my mind is for me I'll take my time Focus on being me And taking care of me And loving ME