One Year Old
One Year Ago
I found myself at my lowest point Barely keeping my head above water My brain screaming to give up But I held my head up long enough to take out my tools and fix it
One Year Ago
I found myself at my lowest point Barely keeping my head above water My brain screaming to give up But I held my head up long enough to take out my tools and fix it
It’s easy to focus on all the negatives on the misery on everything that’s missing
I don’t feel beautiful today I can barely get up and move Why bother pretending anymore? What am I trying to prove?
When an old toy breaks Even one I haven’t seen in years it feels like a part of me broke along with it
Dear Friend,
I know tonight you can’t keep it together I can hear you reciting reasons to carry on
Take a moment and tell yourself that you are enough that you love yourself
Dread rakes its claws through my brain Sowing the seeds of doubt Spreading terror through my mind reminding me that I don’t deserve this
Why can’t everyone see how broken I am inside? How terrible I am? The monster behind my eyes
My world is falling apart Crashing down around me as life throws one blow after another at me
Sinking, struggling Trying to stay afloat I want so badly to close my eyes let it all go dark and give up