I'm scared Everything keeps falling apart Foundations upon which I once stood are crumbling down and I can't stop it but I can still keep smiling

They can take away my rights They can beat me down They can outlaw my people They can take and take and take But the one thing they can't take is the smile on my face

I can find a reason to smile Even when I'm crying Even when I'm scared I won't let them take my light away My beautiful rainbow light that I spread through my smile

My light has so much in it pain and sorrow love and joy spite and kindness everything that makes me me and I can show it all through a smile

They will never take it away No one will ever take it away not my name not my identity not my light not my smile

They're mine and they always will be

#Poetry #Trans #Hope

Even on the bad days when I'm struggling to go on I can still try my best to keep carrying on

It's tough to push through it to reach for my dreams but I can still keep going what else is there to do?

Sure, I might fail I might end up going backwards but other days, if I'm lucky I'll find just the right words

I can make a difference I can keep moving on Above all else I can still try

#Poetry #TouchTheClouds #Resilience #Hope

My demons are many

Anxiety Depression Dysphoria

But the biggest one of all the one that haunts my every moment

Trauma

Every cut Every bruise Every slammed door Every hateful scream Every venomous jab

I remember them all

Trauma won't let me forget

But I need to move on Keep moving forward I know it will heal with time The nightmares aren't real It's gonna be okay

Just keep moving forward One day at a time

#Poetry #TouchTheClouds #Hope #Demons

It's hard to accept that the body I want is still a long way off That my transformation is far from complete

Every day, I struggle feeling disgusted as though my body is covered in a foul smelling slime that I can never wash away

But I carry on finding joy in every new day always looking to a future when I don't fees this way anymore when I finally feel like me

One day I will have a body in which I'm comfortable

One day I will smile at my reflection

One day I won't shudder when I think of myself

One day

One day

#Poetry #TouchTheClouds #Trans #Hope #Dreams

There are people that want to take my right to live to erase people like me to force me to live in misery

I know they aren't all evil But they don't want to understand me And they do want to control me So how can I trust them?

Especially when They bully me into compliance Threaten me into hiding Force me to follow their rules

But one thing they will never do is make me give up

I refuse

No matter what else they take from me they will never take my hope my will to fight

I refuse

When they try to smother me I will scream out louder

When they try to keep me down I will rise up stronger

When they try to break my spirit I will refuse to give up

#Poetry #TouchTheClouds #Determination #Hope #Trans #TransRights

Mirror, Mirror, what do I see? My own self-loathing reflected back at me I've changed so much, and yet all I do is look in you and fret My face isn't the same at all I'm even learning how to walk tall but I can only see what I believe: this self-doubt that never wants to leave So I'll repeat day after day the affirmations I've learned to say in the hopes that I'll make it real that it will become the way I feel I'll cast away these feelings blue the feelings, Mirror, Mirror, I can't hide from you

#Poetry #Insecurity #Trans #Hope

I took a hit and at first I needed to stay down to recover

I stayed curled up crying from the pain but my tears have stopped even if the pain hasn't

I can get back up struggling to stand and look the enemy in the eye so they know I won't stay down forever

What everyone needs to understand is that I'm fighting for my dreams sometimes, I need to stay down but I will always get back up

Because I will never give up

#Poetry #Resilience #Hope #TouchTheClouds

Little mousegirl Alone in a big world searching for someone to hold

Scared mousegirl Monsters all around never knowing who to trust

Sad mousegirl Hurt by the monsters She's curled up crying her tears

Lonely mousegirl Cut off from the world kept locked up by her own fear

Kind mousegirl Always trusting no matter how many times she gets hurt

Happy mousegirl She found the good The warm, loving people with whom she belongs

#Poetry #Anxiety #Depression #Hope #SelfLove

We were built differently We work in ways that so many don't understand So they called us names

Weird Creepy Disgusting Wrong Broken Burden

They said those words Over and over and over Until we believed them We started calling ourselves that

But they're wrong We are not broken We are not burdens No, we are

Kind Trusting Loving Silly Beautiful Special Different

If they can keep saying all those mean words Then why can't we say all those kind words?

Let's use new words to describe who we really are And keep using them over and over again until we believe them

#Poetry #Insecurity #Hope #MentalHealth

Sometimes Life hits HARD too fast to react too strong to take too much to bear and I have to stop and rest When I do I realize I wasn't ready Life was worse than I thought it'd be

It's so easy to become jaded to assume Life will always be this bad

Sometimes Life surprises me it's soft and calming, gentle and kind, warm and loving Life is looking out for me I realize Life was better than I thought it'd be

It's so hard to take Life one day at a time But I still have those moments of kindness to remind me

That Life isn't always as bad As I thought it'd be

#Poetry #MyBeautifulSky #Life #Hope