Even when in darkness it’s always possible to say “It’s gonna be alright” and look forward to better days

One Year Ago

I found myself at my lowest point Barely keeping my head above water My brain screaming to give up But I held my head up long enough to take out my tools and fix it

Walking everywhere with a rain cloud overhead Struggling everyday just to get out of bed

It’s hard to begin a journey when you don’t know how it ends you don’t know if it’s possible it could all be a waste of time

They shoved you to the ground Joining the voices in your head always mocking and jeering saying “You can’t do this”

When we started it felt hopeless but we kept moving forward and tried our best

It’s easy to focus on all the negatives on the misery on everything that’s missing

Everything was beautiful Bright, happy, colorful Full of sparkling, magical wonder I started to smile again Thought that maybe I could fit in And the joy would chase away the thunder Gone were the storms I’d known for so long And I believed with my whole being that I could belong

I believed that I was rotten vile, so easily forgotten An evil creature right to the inside Made to be tossed aside It’s so easy to see that no one wants to be around me Broken, disgusting, creepy that’s how I learned to see me But maybe there is something more Maybe I can leap into the sky and soar

I don’t feel beautiful today I can barely get up and move Why bother pretending anymore? What am I trying to prove?