My body was made producing the wrong chemicals poisoning the person I am
This isn't a choice The choice was to put the correct chemicals in my body to make me the person I am
There's nothing wrong I'm just different I am beautiful I can see that now I can love the person I am
The changes I'm going through are many things
tough unknown stressful exciting good necessary difficult scary
Of all the things that these changes are there is one thing they are very much not
They are not about you
These changes are MINE to make They are what I need They are what is good What is right for me
How long have I lived for others? How long have I tried to fit in?
I push down my wants and needs I ignore my own feelings I put on a mask so everyone else will accept me
How far back does it go? How long have I been afraid?
I had questions I never asked Feelings I never expressed Options I never explored all so I wouldn't be laughed at
I don't know how long I may never know But I accept myself now So I'm finished pretending
It's time to be me
Why must they hate us? We only want to be ourselves To exist honestly To show who we are We choose our names We tell people what to call us Yet they refuse They insist that they know better But they don't How can anyone know us better than ourselves? Why must we be afraid To introduce ourselves To wear the clothes we want To have the bodies that make us comfortable That's all we want To exist To be who we are Why is that so much? Why?
You never knew me as he yet you take one look and judge me My hair too short, my chest too small you see one detail instead of them all And if you looked a little higher you'd see the pin that says “she/her” But you don't see me, you see a boy As though trying to strip away my joy For you see, I shed my strife And learned how to love life This is what you'd see If instead of judging, you got to know me
I have a pair of magical socks They might look ordinary to others But to me, they are most extraordinary They helped me open my eyes
They showed me who I really am
Their rainbows lit up my way The moment I slipped them on And from that moment I have refused to go back
I love who I am I will never hide myself again My eyes are open, never to be closed All thanks to my magical socks
It's astounding what a difference small changes can make reshaping my entire outlook on the rest of life
A new hairstyle only a little different from the last and suddenly my face looks more right than before
A new voice tweaked here and there and suddenly I hear a brand new me
Small things to anyone else but they mean the world to me as I get closer and closer to who I'm meant to be
When I began I was terrified The path was unknown
What if everyone rejects me? What if I end up all alone? What if this is all in my head? What if I'm wrong?
Every step was scary Every step revealed a new challenge Companions vanished Replaced by new ones Instability was the only constant
One step at a time I've made it this far I'm not carefully treading now I'm running Thrilled to see what lies ahead
This is what I want This is who I am
I gazed into the mirror And realized one day That my inside and outside Looked nothing alike
I've chipped away at it Piece by piece As if assembling a puzzle Of who I really am
I've assembled the puzzle To reveal my inside on the outside And with each piece, I see me More clearly than before
Now I can see my style And my heart is shining with joy Because I love who I am Inside and outside