Sometimes my brain is confusion and chaos A balloon of noise about to go POP

My head is a mess Full of thoughts I can't convey Words images Half incomplete sentences All running together like paint To form a blurred idea

My pain is not funny I am not a toy for your amusement

You can say over and over again that it's only a joke

But I am not laughing

We can hear them laughing For me, it was a lifetime ago For you, it's happening right now

It’s the cool kid table You know the one I mean It’s the one with the people that just fit in naturally

I was so excited to see you that I jumped for joy and squealed But when I ran to greet you You backed away in fear

I wanted to show how much I care So I sat and listened to you talk But I didn't respond or react So you thought I wasn't paying attention

You’re not like them Maybe you act a bit different Or you don’t look like everyone else Or they don’t understand you when you talk

I used to think there was something wrong with me I couldn't connect, couldn't understand What are they talking about?