Even on the bad days when I'm struggling to go on I can still try my best to keep carrying on
It's tough to push through it to reach for my dreams but I can still keep going what else is there to do?
Sure, I might fail I might end up going backwards but other days, if I'm lucky I'll find just the right words
I can make a difference I can keep moving on Above all else I can still try
My demons are many
Anxiety Depression Dysphoria
But the biggest one of all the one that haunts my every moment
Trauma
Every cut Every bruise Every slammed door Every hateful scream Every venomous jab
I remember them all
Trauma won't let me forget
But I need to move on Keep moving forward I know it will heal with time The nightmares aren't real It's gonna be okay
Just keep moving forward One day at a time
At first, I didn't see them I didn't even know they were there then they flickered to life for a second bright and beautiful
just like me
They flickered and faded again and again I could only see them at special moments but as fleeting as they were I knew they belonged
Just like me
One day, I went to sleep closed my eyes and when I opened them there were my wings clear as a sunny, blue sky
Just Like me
Now my wings are always there fluttering and colorful full of light and beauty just like a butterfly
Just Like Me
It's hard to accept that the body I want is still a long way off That my transformation is far from complete
Every day, I struggle feeling disgusted as though my body is covered in a foul smelling slime that I can never wash away
But I carry on finding joy in every new day always looking to a future when I don't fees this way anymore when I finally feel like me
One day I will have a body in which I'm comfortable
One day I will smile at my reflection
One day I won't shudder when I think of myself
One day
One day
The world is out of control What do we do? Trapped inside this raging tornado We hold on tightly to each other
We're all here together trying to ride out the storm I don't know where we'll end up but at least we won't be alone
The deafening winds try to rip us apart It's exhausting to keep fighting it But together, we share in each other's strength Together, we are mightier than the storm
Day after day, please keep remembering We can get through this together Just hold on tight I'm here for you
This world pushes work onto us telling us to forget our dreams our passions and toil away to make money
Our loves get lost in the shuffle maybe it's art or movies songs poetry travel surfing dance
Whatever you love go out and do it don't let this world take that away from you
Our love drives us without it this world would be terrible dark, lifeless
Empty
So remember love is life
Go out
Go love
Go live
There will always be people that tell you that your dreams are wrong that you're not allowed to want something no matter how much joy it brings you
They don't care about your feelings Only in holding shut the doors to their minds Building cliffs of ignorance all around them So they will never understand
Ignore them
Keep fighting for your dreams Do it in spite of them Scale the cliffs of ignorance Exist to show them they don't decide what's right for you
And when you're standing atop the mountain beaming with joy and pride They'll be at the bottom Grumbling and groaning in their misery
Stand tall Stand proud And never let anyone else decide what dreams you're allowed to have
#Poetry #TouchTheClouds #Ignorance #Resilience #Determination
There are people that want to take my right to live to erase people like me to force me to live in misery
I know they aren't all evil But they don't want to understand me And they do want to control me So how can I trust them?
Especially when They bully me into compliance Threaten me into hiding Force me to follow their rules
But one thing they will never do is make me give up
I refuse
No matter what else they take from me they will never take my hope my will to fight
I refuse
When they try to smother me I will scream out louder
When they try to keep me down I will rise up stronger
When they try to break my spirit I will refuse to give up
#Poetry #TouchTheClouds #Determination #Hope #Trans #TransRights
I'm not a monster like they make me out to be I'm just trying to be true to myself, to be the real me
I don't understand, I've got a medical condition It's called “gender dysphoria”, but they won't listen to my cries, to my tears, no they just don't care all they wanna do is lie and cheat and scare They don't understand and they don't want to The way people are, why they do the things they do They call me selfish and a liar, say I'm coming for your children Then they try to ban proven science and call me a villain Yeah, maybe I'm a little selfish once in a while but it's okay to do things for me, things that make me smile I'm not a monster like they make me out to be I'm just trying to be true to myself, to be the real me
They call it “chemical and physical mutilation”, it makes me so mad! Would they say the same thing to someone with cancer in their nads? They insult the experts, call their work “junk science” yet those people have proven time and again they've earned our reliance Do they really think I came to this idea on a whim one day? Do they have any inkling how hard it is to be this way? I take pills every day, injections every week And I've got millions of people shouting that I'm a freak I didn't ask to be this way, this isn't a choice I just want to love my body, my face, my voice Gender-affirming care isn't wrong, it saves lives Did you know the percent of people happier for it is greater than 89? I have a voice to speak, a stage on which I stand so I want you to know, I want you to understand there's nothing wrong with this, it's okay to be this way no matter what those people out there say I'm not a monster like they make me out to be I'm just trying to be true to myself, I just want to love me
I just want to be true to myself I just want to love me
We don't belong here They don't want us They won't accept us Even though it's all we know
We can keep trying Changing ourselves to fit in But when I do that I suffocate
I want to be me So I'm going to find a place Where I belong Even if I have to make it myself
I'd like it if you were there too The outcasts, the misfits We have our own place somewhere And we'll get there
One day