Everything was beautiful Bright, happy, colorful Full of sparkling, magical wonder I started to smile again Thought that maybe I could fit in And the joy would chase away the thunder Gone were the storms I’d known for so long And I believed with my whole being that I could belong

I believed that I was rotten vile, so easily forgotten An evil creature right to the inside Made to be tossed aside It’s so easy to see that no one wants to be around me Broken, disgusting, creepy that’s how I learned to see me But maybe there is something more Maybe I can leap into the sky and soar

I don’t feel beautiful today I can barely get up and move Why bother pretending anymore? What am I trying to prove?

It’s hard to believe it So much hasn’t gone your way But I know that if you keep trying You are going to be okay

I know there’s nothing I can say to convince you that you didn’t mess up to stop you from being cruel to yourself or beating yourself up

It’s okay to gaze at the stars and dream of holding them even though it may hurt if you never reach them

On the ground I lie my wings, broken and bloody My flame is going out as I let the darkness take me

Dread rakes its claws through my brain Sowing the seeds of doubt Spreading terror through my mind reminding me that I don’t deserve this

We’ve seen what happens when people are so scared of what’s different, of what they don’t understand that they feel that the only way to deal with it is to turn to violence

Why can’t everyone see how broken I am inside? How terrible I am? The monster behind my eyes