Dread rakes its claws through my brain Sowing the seeds of doubt Spreading terror through my mind reminding me that I don’t deserve this

We’ve seen what happens when people are so scared of what’s different, of what they don’t understand that they feel that the only way to deal with it is to turn to violence

Why can’t everyone see how broken I am inside? How terrible I am? The monster behind my eyes

My world is falling apart Crashing down around me as life throws one blow after another at me

I’m drifting all alone Trying desperately to atone for all the horrible things I’ve done Wishing for life to be fun But I’ve made too many mistakes So I put on smiles, all fakes Because forgiveness can’t be found After everything I’ve done, sleep isn’t sound But if I look through all the darkness I know somewhere, I will find forgiveness Cos even though I am not perfect I know in my heart that I am worth it

This time, you failed Your best wasn’t enough You couldn’t cut it Your job was too tough

Make small steps everyday Don’t leap too far One step, then another Always moving forward

Who will listen when you talk about your life when you try to tell people how much it hurts?

Sinking, struggling Trying to stay afloat I want so badly to close my eyes let it all go dark and give up

I was so excited to see you that I jumped for joy and squealed But when I ran to greet you You backed away in fear