Sometimes my brain is sharp on point, focused, dedicated I can take on any problem the world throws at me
Sometimes my brain is stressy scared, overworked, overwhelmed I have to hide inside and recover before I can do anything at all
Sometimes my brain is loopy silly, goofy, unfocused It's gonna be a while before I can function reliably
My brain is different Different moods, different feelings But I'll always remember that however my brain is right now
It's okay to be that way
It's late and my feelings are running wild I can't control them anymore It's time to brush my teeth and go to bed
I'll be better in the morning, but now all those horrible thoughts are loose the ones I struggle to keep at bay all the time I need to brush my teeth and go to bed
You can ask me how I'm doing but you won't like the answer so instead, I gonna go to my room It'll be better once I brush my teeth and go to bed
I know it's scary It's even worse inside my head but tomorrow is a bright new day So I'm gonna brush my teeth and go to bed
I got my nails done They're bright and sparkly now And it makes me happy So that's what I did
I got my hair dyed Now it's colorful And growing just how I want it So that's what I did
I shaved my legs Now they're soft and smooth And it brings a smile to my face So that's what I did
No more doing what other people want for the sake of pleasing them I'm doing what I want
Yes That's what I'll do
Look at this I worked so hard on it Even though it's not perfect It's amazing
See how it shines right there? That took two weeks See the way it spins and goes? That took three months
I worked and struggled and cried There were a lot of times I wanted to quit But in the end, I made it work Me
I'm good at this I'm proud of myself And you know what? That's okay
It's okay to boast and brag It's okay to show off a little bit After all, I worked really hard so today
I'm gonna take some time to appreciate myself
I need words Full of love and praise
I need time To laugh To cry To talk To be heard
I need affection The warm touch Of one I love
These are my needs It's valid to express them And they are important
When I reach the end of a long day I can lay down and rest
I don't need to earn it I only need to be tired to allow myself to rest
I don't need to push myself beyond my limits I can simply lay my head down and rest
I won't forget that I always need my rest
This is a boundary No, I won't explain it It exists because of trauma Severe pain inflicted time and time again
This is a want No, I won't explain it It exists because of me I've listened and learned time and time again
This is a need No, I won't explain it It exists because of life Years lived Feelings hurt time and time again
Sometimes, they may shift Moving as I reassess them They're mine to have You are not involved in making them So you do not need to understand
You need to respect them Because if you can't respect my boundaries my wants my needs Then I can't be around you
I am hurting Even if you can't understand why Just let me be sad That's all I need from you To let me feel How I'm going to feel
Don't tell me about how other people have it worse than me Don't lecture me about being proper or using my manners I have these feelings Let me feel them
Let me cry
I don't deserve to be Miserable Crying in the corner Where no one will see
I don't deserve to be Excluded Ignored and left behind Without a thought
I don't deserve to be Alone Cast out and abandoned Time and time again
I deserve Love Warmth Kindness Acceptance Belonging Understanding Better
I have boundaries They are designed To keep me safe
I've learned them Through trial and error From times I've been hurt And had to heal To stay safe
If you cross one Without knowing I will forgive you Even if I need to take space To stay safe
If you ignore them Criticize me for them or shame me for them Then I will need a new one I will need to stay away from you To keep me safe
#Poetry #MyBeautifulSky #SettingBoundaries #SelfCare #NoToxicity