You made an image and gave it my name You tried to capture me but it wasn't quite right
When you learned this you got angry “Why isn't she like this?” You asked yourself And you took it out on me
You never loved me You loved an image of me That you made up
That's not my fault
I'm kind and snarky Loving and anxious Flirty and cuddly And so much more That you will never know Unless you get to know me instead of that image In your head
Know all of me Accept all of me Love all of me
We were built differently We work in ways that so many don't understand So they called us names
Weird Creepy Disgusting Wrong Broken Burden
They said those words Over and over and over Until we believed them We started calling ourselves that
But they're wrong We are not broken We are not burdens No, we are
Kind Trusting Loving Silly Beautiful Special Different
If they can keep saying all those mean words Then why can't we say all those kind words?
Let's use new words to describe who we really are And keep using them over and over again until we believe them
The changes I'm going through are many things
tough unknown stressful exciting good necessary difficult scary
Of all the things that these changes are there is one thing they are very much not
They are not about you
These changes are MINE to make They are what I need They are what is good What is right for me
I didn't understand at first I thought you were controlling That you worried too much That you didn't care
But now I see it You tried to guide me You were worried Because you did care
Now here we are After countless shouting matches After so many times I stormed off And none of that matters now
you worry you try to do everything you never stopped loving me you accept me as your daughter you always make sure I'm eating you always check in on me you care
That's why I love you That's why I'm proud to be your daughter That's why I'm proud to call you
Mom
When someone you love is sad there's only so much you can do to make them smile again
When someone you love is scared there's only so much you can do to chase away the demons
When somone you love is struggling there's only so much you can do to help them move forward
It's hard to accept your limits especially when it comes to helping a loved one You may not be able to fix it at all but what you can do every time
Be there Keep loving them Listen to their needs And eventually
That will be enough
I don't deserve to be Miserable Crying in the corner Where no one will see
I don't deserve to be Excluded Ignored and left behind Without a thought
I don't deserve to be Alone Cast out and abandoned Time and time again
I deserve Love Warmth Kindness Acceptance Belonging Understanding Better
When you plan for the worst You keep yourself safe but you risk closing yourself off from the best
There is so much to life and exploring it puts you at risk It's easy to get jaded and close yourself off
But when you live in the dark seeing danger everywhere you will never get to see the beauty in life
Expecting the worst might keep you alive But when you expect the best That's when you get to live
I have boundaries They are designed To keep me safe
I've learned them Through trial and error From times I've been hurt And had to heal To stay safe
If you cross one Without knowing I will forgive you Even if I need to take space To stay safe
If you ignore them Criticize me for them or shame me for them Then I will need a new one I will need to stay away from you To keep me safe
#Poetry #MyBeautifulSky #SettingBoundaries #SelfCare #NoToxicity
Tiny flower petals Drifting in the breeze Carrying with them some precious memories
Can you see them floating on my Traveling upon the passage of Time
Days come and go passing so fast One blink of an eye and the future becomes the past
Take a deep breath stay present and see Tiny flower petals drifting in the breeze
My thoughts and feelings are valid and important I choose to express them to you
But you didn't ask about me or how I felt You discarded my words They meant nothing to you
So I'm finished I won't let you back in to my mind or my heart
If you won't listen to me Then I won't talk to you
#Poetry #MyBeautifulSky #NoToxicity #Listening #SettingBoundaries #SelfCare