Fear follows me Nipping at my heels whispering all the reasons to run away and hide
She has her reasons I know they're valid The world can be cruel I've lived that reality
What has that caution cost me? A lifetime of hiding away of being anyone except me of being lonely and miserable
I'm tired of hiding I'm tired of letting Fear stop me I'm tired of lying to myself No more
Yes, I am afraid Yes, there are reasons to be But I won't let Fear stop me from being me
I am here I am visible I will be seen Speaking out is scary can get me hurt ostracized abandoned But this is who I am and I will be me I will not be silent No matter how loud I have to be I will let the world know that I EXIST
With your trauma you devoured my love With your narrative you silenced my voice With your self-hate you killed my self-love
So
With my will I cut you out With my words I revive my self-love With my wings I fly away free
Because my light is stronger than your darkness
I have a pair of magical socks They might look ordinary to others But to me, they are most extraordinary They helped me open my eyes
They showed me who I really am
Their rainbows lit up my way The moment I slipped them on And from that moment I have refused to go back
I love who I am I will never hide myself again My eyes are open, never to be closed All thanks to my magical socks
I always try to be the person that everyone else wants
Even when that person clashes with who I am
I want to be the person that makes ME happy
I need to find the people who want that too
Then the person they want me to be and I want me to be
will be the same person
Sometimes my brain is confusion and chaos A balloon of noise about to go POP
I need to ease the pressure I know how I just need to let it all out
Please be patient Please be kind I'm dumping out my brain with you because I trust you
Because I need to let it all out
When I was sick You'd whisk me away To adventures with your friends And make it a good day
There were lessons to learn There was wisdom to teach A world of simple joy All within my reach
We bounced and trounced We worried and pondered We celebrated and whooped We gazed and we wandered
I'll never forget those times No, I wouldn't dare All the adventures in your woods Me and you, you silly old bear
My head is a mess Full of thoughts I can't convey Words images Half incomplete sentences All running together like paint To form a blurred idea
But my thoughts are IMPORTANT
Just like me
So I need you To be patient And wait while I make sense of the beautiful chaos That is me
When you found me I was a wounded bird So broken I couldn't fly
You nurtured me showed me how to spread my wings
When I was better I flew around your house and tried to fly away
But you panicked stopped me from leaving with no remorse
If you had let me go I would've come back Not anymore though
I broke out and flew away Free to be who I am Free to be me
No one will hold me down No one will stop me As I fly away
Into my bright, beautiful Sky
My pain is not funny I am not a toy for your amusement
You can say over and over again that it's only a joke
But I am not laughing
I'm crying SCREAMING and that is not funny
Please stop taking my things Please stop moving them Please stay out of my personal space Please leave me alone
Those are boundaries and ignoring them might make you laugh but it tears me apart
Please respect my boundaries Please stop actively causing me pain Because my pain hurts And it is not funny