It's astounding what a difference small changes can make reshaping my entire outlook on the rest of life
A new hairstyle only a little different from the last and suddenly my face looks more right than before
A new voice tweaked here and there and suddenly I hear a brand new me
Small things to anyone else but they mean the world to me as I get closer and closer to who I'm meant to be
An endless struggle to love myself and who I am without finding someone else to do it for me
I will remember all the good things about me what I love about myself be it the way I think, dress, or love I will find what I love about me
Because I love me With all my heart Even when I'm drowning in insecurities I still love me
You can fly o'er the mountains, fly o'er the sea Little baby bird, won't you fly home to me You can see all the flowers, you can see all the bees Little baby bird, just come back home to me
sharing my light has always been easy carrying others smiling and supporting crafting just the right words to brighten their hard days
i give and i give and never ask for anything at all they take and take never offering anything
when i have nothing left i explode burst into a fireball of anxiety and pain hurting everyone close to me
why why do i do this? i get so lost in the joy of helping that i forget the most important thing
I have to help ME I deserve love too
From the moment I held you I loved you with all my heart I promised that I'd do my best Even though I was so lost
Days turned into years You changed so fast The little boy I knew Has grown into a young man
We may argue and yell We so rarely agree But that will never change how much I love you
I see the best and worst of you Holding you always in my heart No matter how you change I'll always love you, my baby boy
Now you're leaving me Seeking a life you can't have here It breaks my heart to see you go But I know deep down, this is for the best
Thinking of what's best for you Even when it doesn't include me Rips out my heart But that's what it means to be a parent
I'll always be there for you I promise that now and forever I know this won't be goodbye Just the start of a new chapter
I hope this journey helps you grow I hope you find what you're looking for Know that I'll be here waiting for you And loving you always, my baby boy
The ones who are there for EVERYONE are the ones most likely to forget
that the person who needs their love the most is THEM
We can hear them laughing For me, it was a lifetime ago For you, it's happening right now
There are no actions you can take no choices you can make no words you can say no games you can play
That will invalidate how you feel
Even if you think you blew it I won't give up, we can work through it Give me time, give me space Then let us talk face to face
And I will listen to how you feel
Your feelings are valid and important I know how easy it is to forget it I hope in time you come to see How special you are to me
I care about you and how you feel
When I cry I don't need you to fix it I don't need to be told what to do I don't need someone to make it about them
When I began I was terrified The path was unknown
What if everyone rejects me? What if I end up all alone? What if this is all in my head? What if I'm wrong?
Every step was scary Every step revealed a new challenge Companions vanished Replaced by new ones Instability was the only constant
One step at a time I've made it this far I'm not carefully treading now I'm running Thrilled to see what lies ahead
This is what I want This is who I am