Poetry for people who could use a little kindness
I sculpted this mask Carved and decorated it Slaved over every detail Then I wore it around other people And they all loved me
I was always hopeful Happy and kind Lighting up everyone's lives That's who I am But not all the time
The real me cries and cowers needs love and affection gets worked up, talks too fast, slips up Most of all She's not perfect
That's the real me I'm tired of meeting their expectations I don't want to wear this mask anymore I only want to be me
The first episode of Rose the Rainbow Mouse is up! You can watch it now on my MakerTube channel.
You never knew me as he yet you take one look and judge me My hair too short, my chest too small you see one detail instead of them all And if you looked a little higher you'd see the pin that says “she/her” But you don't see me, you see a boy As though trying to strip away my joy For you see, I shed my strife And learned how to love life This is what you'd see If instead of judging, you got to know me
I will listen to all of your problems offer support the best I can but you must understand that there will be a point at which I reach my limits and I must take care of myself
It is possible to care for you while caring for me and I will find that balance so long as you are fighting your fight too I will not be the only soldier in your army
I will follow you as long as you lead I will help you without doing it for you I will love you while loving myself
I care too much
Obsessed with the idea that everyone should be happy I toss my own feelings aside
Even when I try To say “This is how I feel” It's so easy for my words to be lost in the waves of other's feelings
When I try I fail So how can I ever learn to succeed?
I need to listen to my body to her needs I need to honor my boundaries I need to remember it's okay to struggle now so I can be better later
I care about everyone else It's time to start caring about me
I dance and twirl My hair fluttering in the breeze My skirt fans out as light trickles through the trees
Birds chirp up above Twigs crack beneath my feet Squirrels run above ground And bugs crawl underneath
Nature sings around me The Sun crowns me her princess The world shines from our light Smiles on both our faces
With a beautiful blue sky Peeking through the trees so green I dance through my kingdom of nature I'm the Forest Princess, Mother Earth my queen
I don't control how anyone else FEELS I don't control what anyone else DOES
They can choose how they feel about me They can choose how they want to treat me
My actions might HURT them might UPSET them might ANGER them but that wasn't my intent I did what I thought was right for me
I control me Only me Their feelings good or bad are theirs They are not my responsibility
I am responsible only for me
I cower and hide within the home I've made smelling the air straining my ears hoping I'll find the predators before they find me
I know they're out there I won't know them at first Until they attack me It's safer to stay here far, far away from everything that will hurt me
I'm only a small mouse covered in rainbow fur Different from all the others I only want to be happy Is that so wrong?
To be a small, happy rainbow mouse Is that so wrong?
I'm not alone Not at all There are so MANY people Friends Loved ones Who are there for me if I need them I only need to ask
it's only me walking My journey is only about me I am important So I will take time to care about only me
There will be time to help others later in my journey There will be time for their problems when I am ready
Until then I will reserve my strength to make sure that I have what I need to care for me