Sometimes
Life hits HARD
too fast to react too strong to take too much to bear and I have to stop and rest
When I do
I realize I wasn't ready
Life was worse
than I thought it'd be
It's so easy
to become jaded
to assume
Life will always be
this bad
Sometimes
Life surprises me
it's soft and calming, gentle and kind, warm and loving
Life is looking out for me
I realize
Life was better
than I thought it'd be
It's so hard
to take Life
one day at a time
But I still have
those moments of kindness
to remind me
That Life isn't always as bad
As I thought it'd be
It has taken
years
and years
and years
To see myself
As more than my mistakes
To love myself
Despite the times
I didn't think
I didn't know
I didn't understand
If that is all YOU see
If you cannot accept
That I am NOT perfect
Then all YOU are doing
is holding ME back
When I look at a flower
I see past her petals
I see a seed that grew from nothing
beat the harsh indifference of nature
grew into a beautiful array of color
She gives others hope
She's a token of love and loss
Of new beginnings
One of many performers
in the great symphony of nature
That's what I see
That's how my mind works
Seeing a piece of the world
that only I will ever see
I'm like that flower
Blooming with my unique colors
Daring to be different
And that is a wonderful thing
Why must they hate us?
We only want to be ourselves
To exist honestly
To show who we are
We choose our names
We tell people what to call us
Yet they refuse
They insist that they know better
But they don't
How can anyone know us better than ourselves?
Why must we be afraid
To introduce ourselves
To wear the clothes we want
To have the bodies that make us comfortable
That's all we want
To exist
To be who we are
Why is that so much?
Why?
I will listen
to all of your problems
offer support the best I can
but you must understand
that there will be a point
at which I reach my limits
and I must take care of myself
It is possible
to care for you while caring for me
and I will find that balance
so long as you are fighting your fight too
I will not be the only soldier in your army
I will follow you as long as you lead
I will help you without doing it for you
I will love you while loving myself