Responsible for Me
I don't control how anyone else FEELS I don't control what anyone else DOES
I don't control how anyone else FEELS I don't control what anyone else DOES
I'm not alone Not at all There are so MANY people Friends Loved ones Who are there for me if I need them I only need to ask
Life became a mess With so little warning Tearing me away from the safety I thought I knew
What now?
For so long I fell into step Like a soldier Marching to a drum
I am here I am visible I will be seen Speaking out is scary can get me hurt ostracized abandoned But this is who I am and I will be me I will not be silent No matter how loud I have to be I will let the world know that I EXIST
I have a pair of magical socks They might look ordinary to others But to me, they are most extraordinary They helped me open my eyes
They showed me who I really am
Sometimes my brain is confusion and chaos A balloon of noise about to go POP
My head is a mess Full of thoughts I can't convey Words images Half incomplete sentences All running together like paint To form a blurred idea
My pain is not funny I am not a toy for your amusement
You can say over and over again that it's only a joke
But I am not laughing
An endless struggle to love myself and who I am without finding someone else to do it for me