Poetry for people who could use a little kindness
I always try to be the person that everyone else wants
Even when that person clashes with who I am
I want to be the person that makes ME happy
I need to find the people who want that too
Then the person they want me to be and I want me to be
will be the same person
Sometimes my brain is confusion and chaos A balloon of noise about to go POP
I need to ease the pressure I know how I just need to let it all out
Please be patient Please be kind I'm dumping out my brain with you because I trust you
Because I need to let it all out
When I was sick You'd whisk me away To adventures with your friends And make it a good day
There were lessons to learn There was wisdom to teach A world of simple joy All within my reach
We bounced and trounced We worried and pondered We celebrated and whooped We gazed and we wandered
I'll never forget those times No, I wouldn't dare All the adventures in your woods Me and you, you silly old bear
My head is a mess Full of thoughts I can't convey Words images Half incomplete sentences All running together like paint To form a blurred idea
But my thoughts are IMPORTANT
Just like me
So I need you To be patient And wait while I make sense of the beautiful chaos That is me
When you found me I was a wounded bird So broken I couldn't fly
You nurtured me showed me how to spread my wings
When I was better I flew around your house and tried to fly away
But you panicked stopped me from leaving with no remorse
If you had let me go I would've come back Not anymore though
I broke out and flew away Free to be who I am Free to be me
No one will hold me down No one will stop me As I fly away
Into my bright, beautiful Sky
My pain is not funny I am not a toy for your amusement
You can say over and over again that it's only a joke
But I am not laughing
I'm crying SCREAMING and that is not funny
Please stop taking my things Please stop moving them Please stay out of my personal space Please leave me alone
Those are boundaries and ignoring them might make you laugh but it tears me apart
Please respect my boundaries Please stop actively causing me pain Because my pain hurts And it is not funny
It's astounding what a difference small changes can make reshaping my entire outlook on the rest of life
A new hairstyle only a little different from the last and suddenly my face looks more right than before
A new voice tweaked here and there and suddenly I hear a brand new me
Small things to anyone else but they mean the world to me as I get closer and closer to who I'm meant to be
An endless struggle to love myself and who I am without finding someone else to do it for me
I will remember all the good things about me what I love about myself be it the way I think, dress, or love I will find what I love about me
Because I love me With all my heart Even when I'm drowning in insecurities I still love me
You can fly o'er the mountains, fly o'er the sea Little baby bird, won't you fly home to me You can see all the flowers, you can see all the bees Little baby bird, just come back home to me
sharing my light has always been easy carrying others smiling and supporting crafting just the right words to brighten their hard days
i give and i give and never ask for anything at all they take and take never offering anything
when i have nothing left i explode burst into a fireball of anxiety and pain hurting everyone close to me
why why do i do this? i get so lost in the joy of helping that i forget the most important thing
I have to help ME I deserve love too