Even if I change myself exaggerating or muting parts to be accepted I have no guarantee that people won't reject me anyway
So why not be
me?
I will spend my whole life with myself so it's more important that I love me than if other people love me
I'll be myself always and learn to love all of me If I've got to spend my whole life with someone I think it's best if I love her
All my life over and over people have told me that I'm not important
They ignored what I had to say Stayed ignorant of my feelings Refused to understand me Scolded me for talking about my problems
It wasn't everyone but it was enough people to make me feel like I didn't matter
It's so much easier to hold it all inside rather than facing that rejection from the ones I love
But I must remember that the people that love me...
Want me to share the things I love care about how I'm feeling work hard to understand me try to help with my problems
They care about me They love me And to them
I am important
#Poetry #SelfLove #Depression #MentalHealth #Loneliness #Insecurity #Kindness
The changes I'm going through are many things
tough unknown stressful exciting good necessary difficult scary
Of all the things that these changes are there is one thing they are very much not
They are not about you
These changes are MINE to make They are what I need They are what is good What is right for me
I don't deserve to be Miserable Crying in the corner Where no one will see
I don't deserve to be Excluded Ignored and left behind Without a thought
I don't deserve to be Alone Cast out and abandoned Time and time again
I deserve Love Warmth Kindness Acceptance Belonging Understanding Better
My wants are important They deserve to be heard
My needs are important They deserve to be met
My boundaries are important They deserve to be respected
My feelings are important They deserve to be understood
I am important I deserve to be loved
For such a long time I'd go somewhere I didn't feel comfortable for the sake of others
For such a long time I'd stay when I was tired Pushing myself to be happy for the sake of others
For such a long time I'd burn myself out Never getting what I wanted for the sake of others
Now I listen to and take care of myself I recognized my own limits and say no for the sake of me
How long have I lived for others? How long have I tried to fit in?
I push down my wants and needs I ignore my own feelings I put on a mask so everyone else will accept me
How far back does it go? How long have I been afraid?
I had questions I never asked Feelings I never expressed Options I never explored all so I wouldn't be laughed at
I don't know how long I may never know But I accept myself now So I'm finished pretending
It's time to be me
When I look at a flower I see past her petals I see a seed that grew from nothing beat the harsh indifference of nature grew into a beautiful array of color
She gives others hope She's a token of love and loss Of new beginnings One of many performers in the great symphony of nature
That's what I see That's how my mind works Seeing a piece of the world that only I will ever see
I'm like that flower Blooming with my unique colors Daring to be different And that is a wonderful thing
That is what I see when I look at me
The wonderful thing about Sky She's a wonderful, wonderful thing Her heart's made of stardust Her soul's made of spring She's a kind and loving, warm and caring beautiful magical girl! But the most wonderful thing about Sky is she's the only one in the world!
I sculpted this mask Carved and decorated it Slaved over every detail Then I wore it around other people And they all loved me
I was always hopeful Happy and kind Lighting up everyone's lives That's who I am But not all the time
The real me cries and cowers needs love and affection gets worked up, talks too fast, slips up Most of all She's not perfect
That's the real me I'm tired of meeting their expectations I don't want to wear this mask anymore I only want to be me