A warm hug A hand to hold A bright smile A soul full of love
These were foreign to me Trapped in other people's worlds So I pursued them At the cost of myself
But the truth is I have those things too And I will always be with me So I can be my own affection
I don't need you to tell me I'm pretty I know I am But it helps to hear it
I don't need you to tell me you love me I already love me But more love can't hurt
I don't need you to tell me I'm a girl I already am one But sometimes it's hard
I don't need validation I'm learning how to validate myself Even though it's tough But I'm going to keep trying
Because I know that
I am a lovely, pretty girl
I've been abused tricked betrayed abandoned ostracized hurt
This is how trauma is made No matter what anyone else says
I have trauma
I don't ask for pity or admiration I'm already taking care of myself
For you see Despite my trauma
I am still beautiful I am still worthy I am still enough I am still sparkling
I need words Full of love and praise
I need time To laugh To cry To talk To be heard
I need affection The warm touch Of one I love
These are my needs It's valid to express them And they are important
Little mousegirl Alone in a big world searching for someone to hold
Scared mousegirl Monsters all around never knowing who to trust
Sad mousegirl Hurt by the monsters She's curled up crying her tears
Lonely mousegirl Cut off from the world kept locked up by her own fear
Kind mousegirl Always trusting no matter how many times she gets hurt
Happy mousegirl She found the good The warm, loving people with whom she belongs
My body was made producing the wrong chemicals poisoning the person I am
This isn't a choice The choice was to put the correct chemicals in my body to make me the person I am
There's nothing wrong I'm just different I am beautiful I can see that now I can love the person I am
Even if I change myself exaggerating or muting parts to be accepted I have no guarantee that people won't reject me anyway
So why not be
me?
I will spend my whole life with myself so it's more important that I love me than if other people love me
I'll be myself always and learn to love all of me If I've got to spend my whole life with someone I think it's best if I love her
All my life over and over people have told me that I'm not important
They ignored what I had to say Stayed ignorant of my feelings Refused to understand me Scolded me for talking about my problems
It wasn't everyone but it was enough people to make me feel like I didn't matter
It's so much easier to hold it all inside rather than facing that rejection from the ones I love
But I must remember that the people that love me...
Want me to share the things I love care about how I'm feeling work hard to understand me try to help with my problems
They care about me They love me And to them
I am important
#Poetry #SelfLove #Depression #MentalHealth #Loneliness #Insecurity #Kindness
The changes I'm going through are many things
tough unknown stressful exciting good necessary difficult scary
Of all the things that these changes are there is one thing they are very much not
They are not about you
These changes are MINE to make They are what I need They are what is good What is right for me
I don't deserve to be Miserable Crying in the corner Where no one will see
I don't deserve to be Excluded Ignored and left behind Without a thought
I don't deserve to be Alone Cast out and abandoned Time and time again
I deserve Love Warmth Kindness Acceptance Belonging Understanding Better