Fear follows me Nipping at my heels whispering all the reasons to run away and hide
She has her reasons I know they're valid The world can be cruel I've lived that reality
What has that caution cost me? A lifetime of hiding away of being anyone except me of being lonely and miserable
I'm tired of hiding I'm tired of letting Fear stop me I'm tired of lying to myself No more
Yes, I am afraid Yes, there are reasons to be But I won't let Fear stop me from being me
It’s easy to run away It’s hard to stand up and speak Finding shelter feels safer Even when it makes you feel weak
Even when in darkness it’s always possible to say “It’s gonna be alright” and look forward to better days
One Year Ago
I found myself at my lowest point Barely keeping my head above water My brain screaming to give up But I held my head up long enough to take out my tools and fix it
Walking everywhere with a rain cloud overhead Struggling everyday just to get out of bed
It’s hard to begin a journey when you don’t know how it ends you don’t know if it’s possible it could all be a waste of time
They shoved you to the ground Joining the voices in your head always mocking and jeering saying “You can’t do this”
When we started it felt hopeless but we kept moving forward and tried our best
It’s easy to focus on all the negatives on the misery on everything that’s missing