I can still see all of your mistakes A constant screening of life’s outtakes So I kept my distance from you Always so ashamed to be near you

It’s easy to remember the times you spoke without thinking and hurt someone precious to you rather than when you made them smile

There’s so much about me to know All of it, I’m willing to show But you aren’t going to take the time to look Only flip through your outdated book

I think you’ve had enough of beating yourself up It’s okay if you make your share of mistakes

I don’t mean to run But I’m about to collapse and if I’m going to fall apart I’d rather be with friends

Dread rakes its claws through my brain Sowing the seeds of doubt Spreading terror through my mind reminding me that I don’t deserve this

I know I can tell you over and over again that you are enough for me

My world is falling apart Crashing down around me as life throws one blow after another at me

I can’t be happy today it hurts too much to try but on days like today it’s okay to let yourself cry

I’m drifting all alone Trying desperately to atone for all the horrible things I’ve done Wishing for life to be fun But I’ve made too many mistakes So I put on smiles, all fakes Because forgiveness can’t be found After everything I’ve done, sleep isn’t sound But if I look through all the darkness I know somewhere, I will find forgiveness Cos even though I am not perfect I know in my heart that I am worth it