I’m falling apart moments from tears but I will still find the strength for a smile

Dread rakes its claws through my brain Sowing the seeds of doubt Spreading terror through my mind reminding me that I don’t deserve this

I know I can tell you over and over again that you are enough for me

We’ve seen what happens when people are so scared of what’s different, of what they don’t understand that they feel that the only way to deal with it is to turn to violence

One voice is small barely audible, practically invisible so when one voice speaks out it’s easy to ignore

I used to believe that I was ephemeral so full of doubt I was certain I was invisible

I come up here and start speaking all these thoughts in my head leaking I try to express how I feel sometimes wondering which of it’s real

We were going to celebrate outside in a beautiful park in the sun in honor of a special day for a special someone

Why can’t everyone see how broken I am inside? How terrible I am? The monster behind my eyes

My world is falling apart Crashing down around me as life throws one blow after another at me