I used to believe that I was ephemeral so full of doubt I was certain I was invisible

I come up here and start speaking all these thoughts in my head leaking I try to express how I feel sometimes wondering which of it’s real

Why can’t everyone see how broken I am inside? How terrible I am? The monster behind my eyes

My world is falling apart Crashing down around me as life throws one blow after another at me

I’m drifting all alone Trying desperately to atone for all the horrible things I’ve done Wishing for life to be fun But I’ve made too many mistakes So I put on smiles, all fakes Because forgiveness can’t be found After everything I’ve done, sleep isn’t sound But if I look through all the darkness I know somewhere, I will find forgiveness Cos even though I am not perfect I know in my heart that I am worth it

Who will listen when you talk about your life when you try to tell people how much it hurts?

Sinking, struggling Trying to stay afloat I want so badly to close my eyes let it all go dark and give up

Sometimes, I work carefully taking my time but I still make mistakes and that’s okay

I know you’re scared of the darkness all around of the darkness inside that it will never go away

Deep down inside is a world I don’t show full of darkness without light to cast a shadow