You shared your light with someone special
But they made you feel oh so terrible
The support and love that you always bring
so many people decided they didn’t need
Now you’re here, sad and afraid
Wishing so badly that they’d all stayed
I can’t understand why people pushed you away
I know it hurt you, but anyway
I guess that means there’s more of you for me
I’m trapped here inside
no matter how many times I’ve tried
to escape this empty pit
The dark, the cold, this is it
The past has swallowed me whole
My regrets and misery have taken a toll
So I’m left to wander, always lost
Wondering if my choices were worth the cost
Then I look out and see something new
and my hope shines through
Cos even though this journey is my own
I don’t have to walk it alone
I’m sorry if what I said didn’t make sense
or even if you might’ve taken offense
I’m sorry if I assumed incorrectly
or if you think I tried to hurt you directly
I’m sorry I can’t be what you want me to be
But I’m not sorry for being me
I’m drifting all alone
Trying desperately to atone
for all the horrible things I’ve done
Wishing for life to be fun
But I’ve made too many mistakes
So I put on smiles, all fakes
Because forgiveness can’t be found
After everything I’ve done, sleep isn’t sound
But if I look through all the darkness
I know somewhere, I will find forgiveness
Cos even though I am not perfect
I know in my heart that I am worth it